I'm still not over flying. I got so sick of flying during the winter. Going for the cheapest tickets often meant subjecting myself to connecting flights. Weekend after weekend. But... I think I'll be able to last the near-6 hour flight. However, the thought of doing an international flight makes me feel absolutely ill.
For the last couple of days, I've been fluctuating between a kind of happy excitement / nervous anticipation and a deep sadness. I really value and appreciate the great relationships I have with people at home - friends I've had since 2nd grade, middle school, beginning of high school, that have (and probably will) remained very good and/or closest friends. People that I've only known for a few years but are still really important to me. While I'm really not going to be gone for that long (until winter break), the fact that I'm moving across the country makes it seem like such a bigger deal to me.
I didn't start feeling kind of sad about leaving all my friends until Wednesday. Even Tuesday night, after our bonfire, Jee Eun stopped by and we talked for a bit. I realized she'd be in Korea for the next year, until next mid-summer. Then it started to hit me some more when saying bye to Jenny and she gave me something to take with me to Boston. Being at home for the past year has made me used to seeing Jee Eun, Jenny, Sharon, everyone, more frequently than I have since high school. Then last night, after hanging out with Nemo, I started to get even SADDER. I started feeling like I really didn't want to leave California, that as routine everything has become, it's just so COMFORTABLE. I began realizing that this would be the last time I would see everyone for... what... only a few months?! 1/3 of a year?
I'm feeling fine now. Which means, of course, that I blame the previous weird emotional change on my uterus, which is currently screaming at me.
Anyway, I am again nervously excited for moving, but incredibly dreading living out of a suitcase for a week. My plane leaves in about 6 hours, which gives me about 4 hours to sleep.
I am grateful for all the friends who made sure to see me before I left.
Jenny, if you're reading this, SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE.
